I Have a Blog Now

I've had a lot of admiration for people who blog for a long time. Like proper blog posts on a personal website, taking the time to put their thoughts together and reflect on whatever's on their mind. So I'm going to start doing that here.

I've done a lot of journaling in the past. Or like, I kept a diary. I don't really know what the difference is if there really is one. And that's been nice and it's been helpful to me but posting something to the internet feels different. Does this need to be helpful to somebody else reading it to be worth posting? Or is it enough for it to just be an honest reflection of what I'm feeling? What if what I'm feeling isn't something profound? Do my ordinary thoughts deserve a place on the internet? Does it matter that I have no audience and don't actually expect anybody to read this?

It might be worth mentioning here that I've never really posted regular social media much, so this is a huge leap for me to be writing long form for the internet like this. Maybe a blog is a better fit for me because I *don't* think that every thought I have should be pushed to people. If you want to read this I'm happy to let you but I don't need my thoughts to show up on anyone's phones because an algorithm pushed it to them.

I've wanted this website to be an extension of what my laptop has always felt like to me. So I want it to be a comfortable place that I can retreat to to rest and escape. I made it public because I felt like letting other people visit but ultimately this is still just my personal quiet home. And maybe that's why I feel more comfortable taking up space here.

So I think I'm going to be doing this more. I don't know what I'll be writing about but I guess "whatever is on my mind" is what blogs are for. It feels weird to say still, that I have a blog. It's gonna be kinda a short entry for my first blog post and I'm not planning on editing this very much but these are my thoughts and I think.